Preserving memories is perilous
activity. I refrain from collecting intimate objects
that hold emotional significance, and, contrary to what
you may have heard from Ms Coelho, rarely take
photographs anymore.
I had not always been this
nonchalant. A few years ago, when I was presented with a
laptop of my very own, it felt like I finally acquired a
personal organized space, where I could create and
document my thoughts and impressions in many different
forms. My central outlet was photography. Capturing
significant and sometimes completely random moments of
the day became a routine habit. There were shots of a
variety of subjects but, in the last year, a number of
them consisted of my little sister who was recently
born, so the fresh enthusiasm of the time compelled more
to picture her every living breathing moment. Pictures
of school and friends were used in the yearbook, and raw
shots of nature would always come in handy for Art
projects. I would devote at least an hour everyday to
storing them in an organized fashion, and, when feeling
inspired enough, typing in ideas observations. Very soon
the number of photographs I had stored became virtually
uncountable.For five years I stored memories on a hard
drive. Due to the fact that it was a Macintosh, it has
never been attacked by a virus, or had ever needed to be
rebooted. When a machine works with such confidence, one
forgets itís not invincible. So one night I placed the
computer on the bedside table and decided to take a nap.
Half asleep, I could hear people whispering and
shuffling about. I awoke when I heard something appeared
to be different except that the laptop to turn no. I
assumed it was out of battery and put it on charging.
When everyone became busy, my younger sister saw her
chance, and immediately tried to reach for the 'toy' we
all kept away from her. She pulled on its wire and, in
spilt second, the machine lay on the floor. My brother
sneakily tried to place it back next to my bedside
table, so I would not suspect the accident ever
occurred.
When we moved back from Dubai to
Karachi, a whole box that contained personnel objects
from my room never turned up. It included autographs and
souvenirs, collected from various people and places over
a long period of time, each holding a special importance
relating to a memorable experience. However, this time
around, I accepted the loss almost immediately, without
uttering a harsh word to my dad.
Nowadays I only take photographs of
extremely enticing subjects, but on the whole, the most
thrilling moments occur in those few seconds, not timely
enough to be captured by the camera, only through one's
eyes.